Tuesday, May 11
Just took a step from school, and lazing back at home. Well, actually it doesn't sound that great. I'm just not mentioning the sunburns I have... Hmm. Just realised I've been on a treadmill so invisible I didn't know I was on one. Like finally taking a breather, then I realised I've been running for so long. Term break's coming, and I'm feeling that bit slack. Kinda looking forward to holidays, looking forward to going back Kuching.
Dreamt of my dad's place last night. Didn't know I was so attached to the area. Then realised I've been looking at my handphone's calendar every now and then just to check the dates. Man, I'm so homesick. Or it's just a place for me to escape to. Wish I could one day move over, but maybe a short-term break, maybe for a year, or six months, or three months... Just a break. Then I can continue with things here when I graduate, find a job... My life is here, no matter how I want to change it. But I know I still belong over at Kuching. I have a place there too.
I'm actually looking forward to completing my studies, so I have a better idea on what to do with my life. I'm now just floating around, waiting for tides to wash me somewhere. It's relaxing, but I can't always do that. I need at least a little control. Just to finish my A's, get onto U for 4 years, come back a grown woman. Can't wait to be there already.
Posted by Isabelle at 10:00 am